I have a serious problem

Is it bad that at night i hate sleeping alone wishing that i had some one to cuddle up to having a void in my hart... when i try to sleep i relize im all alone and have no one in love with me but thats ok i have friends to fill the void. Im starting to feel different i do not know what it is, but its a good feeling like some thing changed in side me the only time im sad is when i lay alone so i just wont sleep :).  i have a been going on these things with friends i do not have a date but they do it sucks but again being with all of them. Ok getting of topic a bit, I know why god put me on earth and that is to help people i truly mean it i want to help every one i want to give money i want to give every thing i can to help I do not know how to do this but i will do this I promise

Grrr

Things suck for me but i know things are way worse then me and i know its selfish to complain but i can not help it. I hate being alone and being single but i have gave up on that shit i feel like no one wants me and that is fine i guess :/ I just wnat to get cuddled lol i know its lame but idk i cant think i think im the undateable guy but i have tons of friends and im fine with that lets hope i find some one that will at least cuddle and chill fingers crossed maybe some one i have dated before probably not casandra im thinking kayla idk tho mind is mested up

So

My life is getting better but i hate being single i wish i could just find a chick to be with but that is not going to happen any time soon ill probably be alone for the rest of my life. I really just need to stop think about it so much. I got a job and work with allot of really cool people. There is some that im attracted to but will not make a move just cuz i do not know I wish i was back in high school and use my charm to get the chick insted of looks I guess every one cares about is looks now a days its sad.

now single ;[

Paranoid

So every thing is working out for me but i cant help to be paranoid it sucks so much i feel like some thing should go right but i cant help to feel this way i feel lonely even tho im not i do not understand these feelings i know im in love she loves me she has told me so why do i feel this way i do not even know any more i cant help it but feel this way it SUCKS im like crying right now i feel so scared i just hope i get over this what ever it is my girlfriend sent me some numbers to  some people that can help me. Im gonna wait tell next wenesday i think i just need to work i really care about my girl friend i love her so much i know she will read this she reads all my post.. I love her so much i hope she does not get mad that i feel this way i know once i see her every thing will just go away and we will be fine as im typing this im playing the song aftermath-hurt ok thank you for reading i get 300-400 views a month i cant believe you people care please comment more i had some nice comments from some one ok good bye

A message from me :)

Ok so lately i have seen some sad things and people that are sad. I would like to tell you all that i feel like its my duty to cheer you up or at least talk with you so if your ever sad let me  know and ill talk to you and i hope make you happy. im  there for you even if you do not know me i love life allot and i do not want to see some one die cuz they have no one to talk to :) ok thats all i got to say for today i hope to update this more but with little time i have its hard

i feel kinda sad

Im feeling kinda down today starting to realize so many different things, most good things. but i can not help to  feel soo sooo down i do not know why , i hope when i talk to my gf tonight she will make me feel better  i need her here but i do not know when thats going to happen i cant even believe that she wants me im so lame dumb and ugly and she is so amazing funny cute so so beautiful . shit as im typing this im having a panic attack shit man this sucks the pain i get from these is unreal its taking me a wile to type this when it should be like 30 secs to type all of this .. i do not know any more im so useless i hope my gf loves me